Living the dream

Because eating out diapers is a way of life of a pet goat

Alex scared me sitting like this last night. I thought by was dead. Apparently laying with your head like this is comfortable for a goat. Who knew?! 

Snuggling with AB before bed

Just being a goat! 

We love our goat mommy!

Playing in the yard and just being a goat!

The humans are reading and AB is trying to sleep

Ethan holding AB

Alex snuggling with Logan!

Again just being goats!

Mommy it’s our bedtime. Good night!!

GUYS!! I am living my dream! Of course I would love more land but I HAVE GOATS! I get to watch them be goats. I get to play with them, and feed them, and watch them grow. I get to dress them, I get to sleep with them and I get to be a goat mom. 

Granted, there are the downsides to having goats. My backyard smells like a barn due to the wet hay, my house is not clean and messes with my anxiety, I have to clean up a ton of goat poop. I have more laundry to do, which is never ending as it was, I have no money in my bank account...I could go on...

BUT I HAVE GOATS. I am sitting outside on a nice (false) spring day, the sun is shining, the wind is blowing, and I get to watch my goats graze on the grass and hay. I get to read while they sunbathe. I get to pet them and hold them and make the dog stop chasing them. I get to just be. I can let go of my anxiety, and just watch the goats be goats. I can forget that I don't have any money, I can forget that my job is stressful, I can forget that my boys fight every chance they get during the school breaks, I can forget everything and just be with my goats. And if that is not living the dream then I don't know what is. 

I would love to get more land, but this will come eventually. 

I would love to have a clean house, but my anxiety makes me clean ALL THE TIME anyway.

I would love to have more money, but I make enough to keep food on the table for the baby children and husband, I make enough to pay the bills and have JUST enough to buy extras for the goats and children. 

I would love to have my barn for goat yoga, goat meditation, and goat therapy; but that will come eventually. 

For now, I will sit outside with my goats, watch them be goats and just be. Try to stop thinking about the next chore, or the next bill, or the next whatever, because that will always be there. I will take a cue from my goats and enjoy the day, the sun, the wind, the warmth and soak it all in. Because, one day, it will rain and pour and I will wish I didn't waste my beautiful days wishing for more. 

Right now, I have it all. I have a great husband, I have three awesome children, I have a beautiful home, I have a car to get me places and I have enough land to have happy goats. And for now, that is all I need.